Results of altercations

When we could, we just chose to not talk…
And now even if we choose, we probably will never together take a walk…
When you asked, I hesitated to take yours in my hand…
And now He says, you will never be beside me to stand…
I never said but you were and far beyond than a true friend…
And now that you are away, I just sit here alone on this cruel land…
I wish I said your words than just my rant…
And now He just left me here to know that of you there is no supplant.

Her misconceptions...

She felt, in my mind, it was all bcoz of the past.
Ain't she know, I went to the future at last.
Listen o'dear,
the storm isn't just due to a fear,
Neither it's just memories of you and mine,
But only the possibility of our destined divine.
The thought of you and me on the roof under the moon,
And the feeling that the moment shouldn't end soon,
Is probably the cause of all this selfishness and hate,
As all happiness seems out of my fate.
In the end you live anywhere,
Just know that I used to and will think of you always and not just rare.
Howmuchever you think that for you it was not fair,
He knows I tried to present the best of my care.

Partners FOREVER??

I went into oblivion after that thought in my mind which was about movies related to love and romance. I am sure that everyone can name tens of movies which are about boy trying to ting bells in girls heart and then finally then end up in love. But we have not seen many movies which tells about after that. Isn't it? But why? probably because cinema is all about what is more fun to show. Does that mean after love happens there is not much fun and passion as before? The answer is PROBABLY YES! Let us think about the time when you started falling for your partner. In many cases the people fall for others after listening to their thoughts and seeing how do the person perceive world around him. For example the guy may be telling about his views of respecting girls, or what kind of peculiarities does he observe in a girl. If the girl sees that though the guy is talking about girls IN GENERAL but still he remains more interested in typical nuances of a girl's beauty like good hairstyles, that typical glow of her skin, her body language, her smile etc., more than vital statistics of a girl, then the girl may start liking the boy. Now both confront to each other and are in a relationship finally. Now can you guess what will happen? The guy will observe other girls IN GENERAL 'AS BEFORE' and will come up with INTERESTING LOGICAL POINTS as food for thoughts SAME AS EARLIER. But the same quality of the guy for which the girl had liked him before will go against THEIR relationship. Now the girl wants herself to be THE ONLY ONE TO BE OBSERVED AND COMMENTED UPON by the guy. But I ask such girls - 'Gal! Were you lying before that you liked this thing in him or are you psycho now??'. I ask the same question to all the readers of this post, especially girls - You initially believed that you were partners forever, but are you really ACTING LIKE PARTNERS FOREVER??

Why Knowing YOURSELF is IMPORTANT?

We may have heard this from few intellectual people around us who say ONE MUST KNOW HIMSELF. Though that appears to be great words of wisdom but somehow it does not make much sense while listening to them. So let us talk about the bigger picture. The bigger picture of the whole thing is that IT REALLY DEPENDS ON THE NATURE OF THINGS THAT YOU ARE INVOLVED IN based upon which one actually realizes the importance of knowing himself. By the nature of things I broadly mean the duration of the existence of some work or feeling that one does or one endures respectively. If some work is of a very short duration and you are going to be back to your LOVABLE LIFESTYLE after a predestined duration of time, then whether you actually love the job or not or whatever dullness is associated with it, will not affect you at all. But if the work does not go with your personality or you get bothered while doing it and still you have to be involved in it with undetermined duration of time then it can be really bad. The sense of uncertainty of its completion can really shiver you from your insides. And hence if one knows himself then before committing to any long term thing he can think of possible ways that he will be able to use to calm himself and make him remain at peace while doing that complex work. So that later on when you can't quit due to some reason then you don't become dysfunctional out of anxiety and nervousness that is caused due to blank mind though mind must be working to get things done.
Thus Knowing yourself actually helps to make more conscious decisions and not fall apart when you go through tough experiences.

Dilemma in Approaches of Improvement

The only thing which one strives for in life to lead to something better is IMPROVEMENT which is actually very important also to give life its meaning. But I have observed a big problem or rather I must say a circle which keeps one from improvement though his intentions and efforts are towards improving. Well I am talking of the first phase in such endeavors i.e. of observing and finding how to actually improve. But observe what?? One can either observe himself or other people. Learning from others success or self correction are two ways. But what are the problems that one face by trying either things. In the case of self correction one is observing himself and trying to overcome his own shortcomings. But often it happens that the person is so much self engrossed in observing his own things that he either starts following his different pace of analyzing things and doesn't remain involved with others around which according to me is not a good sign. The other method where you try to learn from others also has some flaws. The flaw of getting lost in THEIR TYPE of thinking rather than FINDING YOUR INDIVIDUALITY. These two things lead to a thought in my mind that for actual improvement one must keep balance and use both techniques one by one. Observe others and learn from them. Then see whether YOU COULD HAVE adopted the same approach as them. Can there be some modifications in their approach those can be applied by you to achieve some improvement. And then you will be able to use their experience ACCORDING TO YOUR OWN INDIVIDUAL PERSONALITY.

Changes....

Probably in last couple of years I did not feel very much out of place ever and hence never realized this thing which you guys must have had experienced much before. I am talking about the changes that occur in your environment when you change your living city and hence your surroundings. I used to hear elders saying that changes are bound to occur in future which might change one completely. But frankly telling , I never undderstood the gravity of the statement. But today I have changed my belonging completely and now I realize the concept behind that statement. In this post I will just discuss a small example. Being an Indori I have this nature inherent in me : "arey bhai koi na yaar tere liye toh jaan bhi haazir hai, tu jahan bolega vahan chalenge, jo bolega voh karenge". Even in scortching heat if a friend is stuck somewhere on the road with some problem in his car we are there pushing his car to get it started. I never remember myself giving it a second thought before calling my friend for help or asking him to push my car when battery was down. IT WAS SO OBVIOUS!! THAT SEEMED TO BE THE ULTIMATE TRUTH AND WAY OF LIVING LIFE!! But what now?? why things are not that obvious?? Why do I give it a second thought ?? It all starts when you ask for something in an obvious manner and get a not so obvious answer.. :P .. "Come on dude! are you nuts! I am not getting out of my home in this heat!! ".. hehe.. It is in these sudden situations that you start hearing that voice from your inside which says to you that - "My boy ! nothing is obvious!! you have to be now more cautious!!" This voice soon talks to you even more and you CHANGE!!.. Hehe .. Finally you HAVE TO CHANGE and infact YOU WILL CHANGE !! :) ..

- Probably the ultimate key is ultimate independence. !!

Kahan hoon main[ Where am I] ?????

Bas abhi toh laga tha - HAAN YAHI HAI,
Na jaane ab kyun lagta hai ki shayad yeh bhi sahi nahin hai,
Laga tha shayad ab kisi ki kami nahin hai,
Par na jaane ab usi ehsaas par yakeen kyun nahin hai,

Sun had risen in the corner of my room with a ray of hope,
But the room's still prevailing enormous darkness kept me mired in a long rope,
It feels like I came here from nowhere,
And it strengthens fear that probably I will go nowhere from here.